turning point

I sat on the windowsill in House of Haynes yesterday, thinking. Sometimes it is easy to become trapped by your own ideas. Nina recalled just having seen work of artist Julie Del Hopital on the Arttranspennine08 project website. Her starting point begins from 'the obsession of two animals, the cow and the whale.' http://atp08.blogspot.com/2008/01/julie-del-hopital.html Nina quoted: '[my] art practice is not meant to elude answers, the work is restless.' It pulled somewhere inside me. An acceptance of whatever comes to you, that which may/ or may not be consciously decided. The way we have to work depends largely on trust in yourself and allowing the strange puzzle of pulls that arise to develop.

Not a great deal is always needed to find the crux of what it is you are truelly looking to explore. I am trying to let go of what is not necessary. My initial idea for the exhibition seems too much now, it is too weighted. I will see in the next days if the film I wish to develop will work. What I am realising is I have been grasping my need to create in my clenched fist since I graduated- as soon as I turn my fist to the floor and release my fingers that creativity falls away. I would like to let ideas rest gently on the flat of my palm, not trapping them, and in turn they will not fall if I relax. We are always chasing things we cannot see.